Monday, July 16 started out feeling different from any other day. Deep down, I knew why. For the first time in months, I slept soundly for a solid eight hours. I didn't move all night and I wasn't woken up by having to adjust my belly or push a foot out of my ribs. I just … Continue reading The Day a Piece of Me Died Too
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That’s Just Life and That’s Ok
Well I finally lost my streak of daily blogs and as bad as that messes with my OCD it couldn't be more of an example about life. Not everything works out exactly as I have it planned and that's ok. The blogs are not everything even though they mean everything to me right now. It's … Continue reading That’s Just Life and That’s Ok
Mondays
It's always been the most dreaded day of the week, Monday. The day most return back to work, filled with time management, places to be, things to do. ugh. Where did my carefree weekend go? I was not sad that weekend was over for us but I, too, dreaded Monday. An amniocentesis was the procedure … Continue reading Mondays
He is Always With Me
…We left the office in shambles. I don't know how to explain it, but it was the exact moment I was never the same. This isn't my first hardship but it's the moment my worldview lenses had changed to a worsening prescription. Of course, I knew of these things happening to other people but not … Continue reading He is Always With Me
On His Birthday
I think God has a sense of humor. Nothing about the situation as a whole is funny but God knows me and therefore knew I'd look back at this part of the story and laugh, seeing nothing but His perfect plan. I laugh to keep from crying. It's a reflex and a way of processing … Continue reading On His Birthday
Giving Her a Name
Today, I just want to give her a name. After all, this whole month of remembrance for me started with her. Some call it a good guess, some call it a mother's intuition, but no matter what label you give it, I knew my second pregnancy was a girl. I anxiously awaited for those little pink lines … Continue reading Giving Her a Name