Here and there, we picked up some items for our girl just hoping we would be bringing her home. Not much, because we still knew in the back of our minds the chances were low. A lacy diaper cover and a bow for pictures. Also, a special going home outfit. A matching mommy robe and baby swaddle because it’s a dream of mine to match my mini me. A bed bassinet for nighttime but that’s all we needed because “if we make it home, she won’t be leaving my arms.” Our bags were packed and we were ready.
Around 34 weeks was when all this prep and the meeting with the CMC hospital staff took place. I was so mentally and physically worn out and just ready to meet her. Like I said earlier, God has a sense of humor but more importantly He knows what we need, therefore the month of June was our time to be front door greeters at church! Ha. It’s honestly the last thing I wanted to do but we did it.. I stood there smiling every Sunday while woman touched my belly, smiling, asking when we’re due. “Wow, you look due any day now.” “What are you having? A girl! (Looking down at Charlie beside me) Now your family is complete!” I wanted to scream but also found joy at showing her off. The ones who knew would squeeze me tight. It was agonizing and healing. The same dance I go through to this day.
I had switched over to a new OBGYN, Dr. T, around 31 weeks because I needed to deliver at a large hospital so I needed an MD who had privileges at CMC. He is straight forward, kind, and experienced. He wanted to fight for us. He was gracious and at 33 weeks gave me the rest of our time together off work. My body was larger than it had ever been. I was swelling. I was out of breath and little did I know I was almost out of time. I could barely bend over to take care of my patients. It was time.
My last week at work my work family threw me the sweetest shower I could have ever dreamed of. I had already marked this off my list. I never expected it. Gifts to pamper myself, to honor my girl. I barely held it together. I will never forget their acts of compassion and love.
“For no one is abandoned by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion because of the greatness of his unfailing love.” Lamentations 3:31-32 NLT
I had met Dr. T a couple times but then it was time for my 35 week check! I was surprised to hear I was dilated to 1 centimeter! Everything about the birth process was new to me because Charlie was a planned CSection. I was so excited my body was reacting normally since nothing about our journey had been normal since week 14. It’s funny but I prayed to feel what birth would be like. It was about to be our time!
DAY 13. I’ve cried about this all day but today I did one of the biggest acts I have been anticipating and planning. I can’t tell you yet though because it makes more sense later in our story.. lol. I pray I’m making God and Eve proud. All for you baby.
Evelynn’s Basket 